Saturday, June 20, 2009

Fathers Day

Well tomorrow looms like a vulture over it's prey...oy, doesn't that sound pretty? Don't worry this post won't be all ugly. Tomorrow like you all know is fathers day... I have been putting this day to the back of my mind for some time now. Bonnie and I had discussed what we would do for this day and I told her I wasn't sure but wanted to come up with something to remember Preston and what an amazing daddy he was and then to honor our heavenly Father who has led us through this journey with His perfect grace and unfailing love. But every time the topic popped into my mind to put something together i avoided it like the plague!  I just didn't want to deal with the subject! I've had a hard time lately so I didn't want to add to my emotional roller coaster. I was so negligent on the topic of fathers day that I in fact forgot to buy gifts for my own father and father in law (sorry guys). My mom asked me what I was going to do for Fathers day last night and I was like, oh ya, fathers day, crap! So now, one day before I am sitting here trying to think of what to do to honor the two fathers in my childrens life. Any ideas? I'm wimping out and asking for help cause to be honest I don't feel like I have the emotional energy to whip up something great..I just know I want to for the boys sake. 

What else is new with us? Well... very EXCITING news, we're taking a trip to Florida this September! Me and "my story" were chosen to go to a national insurance conference, where agents from ins. companies all over the country will come to be more informed on the importance of different types of insurance (can I say that word just one more time please?)  Four families were chosen from across the country and a representative from each will speak to the agents on the last night!  I don't know if they know what they're getting themselves into having chosen me as one of the speakers! ha ha, but I know God, like he did Vegas, will use this to magnify who He is and to help others, I'm excited.  
And as well as going to the conference Newsweek magazine is doing an editorial on each of the four families attending! We had our photo shoot for that yesterday, and boy is it stinkin hard to get two children to cooperate at the same time. The photographer was so sweet and hung out with us the day before where he commented on how well behaved the boys were, well... I'm sure he had different feelings after the shoot. ha! We shot at two locations and took a billion pictures so considering all they had to endure they did great!  Oh and the newsweek will come out the last week of August or around that time:) 
This Monday we film a short video that they will show at the conference, detailing our story, who we are etc.  I've already done one for my ins company for Vegas and it is very emotionally draining because you have to relive the accident all over.  But the motivation that I am helping others encourages me to stay strong and do my absolute best. Pray for us on monday if you think about it!
We'll be in Florida for the "anniversary" date - 9-15, which is a HUGE blessing because it will be something good to look forward to. Especially because we get to go to Disneyworld! whoohoo! I'm so pumped, Disney anything makes me feel like a kid again and takes the sad out of life, momentarily anyway! My mom, sister and Kristin, Jonathan and Susannah will also come to support me and just have a good time.  
I'll end here with the last video we did... sorry it took me this long to share.   
warning: tears are inevitable



13 comments:

Anonymous said...

september sounds exciting! try getting 3 kids to cooperate in a photo shoot, lol. ITS HARD, especially when they are a little older, like my 3 are LOL (we had them done at sears last week). cannot wait to see u guys in a couple weeks!! as for the fathers day ideas, im sorry ive got nothing to help you out.......
STEF

Laurie said...

Tara,

That video is AMAZING. You exude strength and unspeakable joy, despite your circumstances. You are a true testimony to the Lord's love and grace and I have no doubt that you will be used mightily at the insurance conference and in every place you find yourself in life.

I will be praying especially for you (and Bonnie) tomorrow on Father's Day. For what it's worth, my only advice would be not to stress yourself out trying to make the day "extra special" for the kids. Only do as much as you can handle emotionally and just be there to give your kids extra love and support.

Thanks again for your inspiring words!

Anonymous said...

Tara.
I am so glad that God is blessing you with the opportunity to share your story and to have a good time at Disneyworld on the "anniversary date" - hopefully take your mind off things. I always enjoy reading your blogs. Keep the faith.

Melissa Hoeker

Anonymous said...

Once again you have used your pain to move forward and bless us. Thank you for sharing your story. For Father's Day? .... I think the video says it all. A wonderful memory and tribute to Preston will bless his parents and your parents...well, they raised you well! Your boys are too young this year to understand, so don't push or stress it. Remain blessed, my friend.

Lindsey said...

Oh Tara! I love you girl! Thanks for posting!
I am really looking forward to reading the article in Newsweek. :)
Lindsey

Bonnie said...

Tara-Cried through the whole video. Wish we could spend tomorrow together. I also didn't think about buying gifts until yesterday. Caroline made cards for the fathers in her life. That's about all I could handle. I also have not come up with anything "special" for tomorrow. I think I'm going to take your friends advice from the other comments and just do the best I can to make it through the day and spend time with friends. Love you and I'm praying for you.

Anonymous said...

wow! what a touching video....

for father's day: maybe you could go to a special place where preston liked to go....so the boys and you could remember him in your own time.

but as many said before, i would try to spend some time with friends/family as well. so that you don't have to be all alone the whole day.

leslie

Anonymous said...

Dear Tara,

I just wanted you to know you are in my prayers. I am really glad your story was picked. I am really glad you had prepared for the future with life insurance especially at a young age. We finally got life insurance last year. Thank you for your honesty in your blogs. I will pray for you Monday. I know how hard it can be to get children to do what you want them to do. As for father's day I think a phone call if not here or e-card or both. If here spend time doing something with them that they enjoy doing sometime.
In Christ Love,
Michele

Barclee said...

thank you for sharing that. it touched my heart so deeply. praying for you today and everyday!

Risa said...

Praying for you today...

Marissa said...

*sobbing*
You are amazing. Our God is amazing. When you said, "As I held him, I cried out to God - You can't take him yet! He has so much more work to do!" Little did you know, Tara, that Preston's work was going to be through you. Your story is out there... our amazing God and what He has done in your life is out there. Praise Him! For circumstances we cannot change and for what He knows and does in our life that we simply cannot explain or comprehend.
I pray for you every day, my friend. I cannot wait to see you this summer.
Love, M

MattandMelissaMenzel said...

Wow, what an amazing video, Tara you are a testimony of God's goodness! It is so encouraging to see that you are been bringing God glory even in unimaginabley difficult circumstances! You are so beautiful, thank you for sharing the video too!

Jessica said...

I loved the video that you did. It must have been so hard but I know that it will help families not have to face those tough times without help. We saw the video at a Life Insurance training class and I was bawling in front of all my fellow Reps. Your video has made me more diligent in asking my customers about life insurance.