Monday, June 22, 2009

Update on our days...

I survived! I made it through a hard day and I'm thankful. Fathers day wasn't as bad as I imagined. Although I skipped out on church because it is really difficult to hear how people will be spending their fathers day. Seeing fathers and their children is hard in general, but God gives me strength through those moments as you can't really hide from looking at intact families! And in time, with the Lord by my side I will heal from that pain.
For Fathers day we watched home videos with Preston in them! That was great, when I watch them I often pretend I am back in that moment for just a minute. When I snap out I still find it so surreal that this reality is my life, and yet the gifts that Preston left which is our boys brings me endless joy. When Jake saw daddy on the videos he waves and says, "hi daddy!...." such innocence. And you know what, the one thought that gets me through every sad moment is the amazing HOPE we have that one day we will be together with Preston again. That's real.
Today was the video shoot! I woke up and wanted to barf. I have had a few panic attacks in my life and I came close to another one this morning. Simply because it's hard to relive the accident! And I want so badly to do a good job because this is important! Life insurance is invaluable and I hope everyone, especially those that have kids has a policy (it's very inexpensive). The people who were in charge of this day were absolutely amazing! They were sweet and funny and just easy going! That was a relief for me and made everything easier. They interviewed me, mother, Kristin and Jonathan and then asked Jake and Susannah some questions! ha ha, I'm kidding, no exploiting kids here. Then they took some "B roll" (where it will be dubbed over with music or talking) they had us "talk" to one another or play together or do the makerana (ha ha that would have been fun though).

And now it's done! I'm excited to see the final version! Hopefully I'll be able to share it on here.
This week (the 26th) will be our fifth wedding anniversary:( I can't really talk about it much cause it makes me sad, 5 is a big number. Simple as that.

Thanks for all your prayers!! I'll end with some pics of my adorable children. Praise God for my kids.










9 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am glad that Father's Day was not as bad as you had thought. God is good. Sounds like the video shoot went really well, that is great to hear. Your kids are super cute, love the one of them in the bucket. Also, will pray for you with your wedding anniversary coming up. I am always amazed at your strength and faith. You are inspiring. :-)
Melissa Hoeker

Anonymous said...

The pictures of the boys are so cute. I think about you often and am so glad that you make it through one day at a time. Jessica N.

Anonymous said...

wow 5 years, seems like yesterday, and i say the same for mine, we hit 6 on sunday! crazy!! i will be thinking of u on the 26th! I too am glad fathers day wasnt as bad for you as you had thought it would be! and glad the photo shoot went well too! have a safe trip back home and we will see u there in about a week and a half!!
STEF

Malory said...

hey freaky sister, I love the pics, what a couple of cuties!! can't wait till I see you tonight!!!!!

Bishop Family said...

I am really glad Father's Day wasn't as bad as you thought. Videos are great memories and I am glad that you allow yourself to watch them and remember. Your children are beautiful! Take care of yourself! Praying for you and your family!

Anonymous said...

glad everything went as good as it could!! i'm sure the video will turn out great. love the pics, micah is definetly looking more like his big bro!! see you soon!
renee

Tina said...

i am sooo glad that u were able to have a good fathers day. I was wondering what u were goin to do for that day because i knew it would be hard for u and im glad u found a way. I hope to see you soon at church. I will be looking forward to the newsweek magazine. I will keep on praying for you. Luv and god bless. Stay strong!

York Family said...

I'm so glad that you made it through Father's Day. I watched your video and I couldn't help but cry. You are so awesome for sharing your story. Hopefully it will impact other young couples to get their houses in order. You never know when your last day will be. I am so thankful that our house was in order when Jimmy passed away. What a blessing it was (and is)! I'm glad to hear that you and Preston took care of the not-so-fun business side of your family, too!

Kristen said...

I just saw your video and came over to your blog. Your faith is amazing and you are such an inspiring woman. Keep up the amazing work!