House!

I found a house!! It was a totally amazing experience... I was really annoyed by the whole house hunt - i'm looking at renting for now and it's even more frustrating as it's not mine, renting feels like you're a pee on lol... in my dads words.  I had a peace the entire hunt that God would provide something just perfect for us and I had looked at several potentials, but nothing worked out. On Monday, I was driving to Kristins to drop Jake off so I could go apply for a house I had looked at earlier, didn't love the house it was like, mehh whatever, it will do... while on route I was saying to the Lord, how it would be just great if I could drive past a house with a for rent sign, i'd call and all would work out... Not even 2 miles down the road I see a super cute house with a for rent sign! It was in my perfect neighborhood too! I called immediately and it was more than I had even prayed for, 4 bedrooms + a huge bonus room and a yard and all within my price range!  God is good, I know he doesn't always choose to answer prayer within our desires (for good reason!) but I was so 

thankful he did this time. 

I went to look at it and loved it, I'll post a picture:) I move in at the end of September. Thanks for your prayers!

It is weird to be "moving on" without Preston, it feels so wrong, needed, but wrong. You always imagine you will get a house together, and raise your children together, and when that "dream" is broken you are left to rethink life in a BIG way, if family was always the "point" or the goal in life (in a sense) what is the point or goal now? yes I still have a family, they are precious, but it's different. I have spent a ton of time thinking about what I want our family to look like... what will our "new normal" look like?  I know personally I want to glorify God in all I do, but what does that look like NOW? I don't just want to live playdate to playdate and dinner to dinner, I want God to use us and live a life worthy of Him beyond or maybe even through our daily routine.  I trust God will help me sort this all out, as it can be entirely overwhelming to do myself. 

Ok now it is time for the emberassing section of my blog...ughh.. this is actually the reason I haven't blogged, i feel so dumb! You know how I mentioned being on the cover of Newsweek? Prior to telling you all that, I had talked to one of the guys involved 

in it and he said, "Tara, you made the cover!" so what would you think? I thought, the cover of the magazine, duh! But... the other day I was talking to another girl working on the special as well and she was like, "the picture of you on the cover, of the SPECIAL SECTION is great!" Special section people!!? oiy! Dork... well there you have it, I know it 

wasn't really my fault, but I still shouldn't have mentioned it to anyone. The inside special is awesome though, the issue comes out Sept 7th, dated for the 14th 

and yes it is sold in Canada, but if you live in a smaller town you might have to search harder as they only sell a few copies.