Sunday, October 11, 2009

Sobering times...

Lately I have heard about far too many deaths or people getting severely sick, depressed people and people without work or money... seriously depressing... I asked God, as I have during several different moments this year, "why?" I asked him, "God, what do I do with all of this? Watching those you love suffer and struggle with all of life's "moments," and even those you don't know is absolutely heart wrenching! My personality tends to want to make everything better...make my family feel better, my situation better, my personal struggles better... and I have FULL confidence that God CAN help me and them conquer each of those, but it still hurts.
God didn't say we wouldn't suffer, but he said he would be there THROUGH the suffering. "Even though we walk THROUGH the valley of the shadow of DEATH we shall fear NO evil" What an amazing reminder!? THROUGH the valley my friends... we aren't ever stuck there.
Even as I write this, tears well up in my eyes as i think of the tragic stories I've just heard this week that hit SO close to home but what is even more powerful is the immense peace God is giving me at the same time - He is in control of each tragedy, each job loss, each financial struggle and each heartbreak and HE WILL work everything out for the good of those who love him.
I wanted to share with you, if you haven't already read it: Preston's blog. I am still amazed that God uses even his blog to reach my soul... if you click here, PRESTON'S BLOG and scroll down to "accidental tragedies" he writes about the same thing as I do now...

"In this world you will have trouble, but take heart I (Jesus) have overcome the world" John 16:33

I always imagine one day when we are FOREVER in eternity and if we are able to look back on our life on earth the freedom and joy that will come from knowing our present struggles really were worth the joy that is now (heaven) before us. That's why it's so important to know where you are going when you die... realizing this in hell would suck more than anything this life can dish out! I beg you, not because I have to meet some quota of sharing my faith, but because I know this to be true and have lived having a relationship with Jesus Christ and the joy that comes from glorifying God with your life is better than any "joy" this world can give. I promise you. Don't put God on your to do list... God is there and is more real than the words in front of you. CLICK

In other things... we are all settled into our new place! We LOVE it... can I tell you what an enormous blessing it is? I am all unpacked and we even had company this weekend! I still have to decorate the walls, but I'm slow at that because I am freak at "trying" to perfect it all. I have alot coming up this week and one thing in particular... Micah is having surgery, the details are not bloggable, but please pray for both of us. I know that his chance of death are very slim, but still having your precious baby go under and get operated on is something I have never experienced and something I wish his daddy were here for. I need strength and lots of prayers!
Well I should actually get something done around here.... thanks for your continued love and support I am blessed...

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

praying for you and micah this week!!
renee

Jenny said...

Hi Tara, I have commented a couple of times before, and just wanted to tell you that I understand your fears about Micah's surgery. My oldest son had to have a "routine" procedure when he was about 10 months old, and I was really scared about it. I expressed my fears to a few people only to be met with, "Oh, you don't need to worry, it's just a simple, routine surgery." Well... not when it's your baby, it's not! I wasn't really that nervous about the surgery itself, but about the anesthesia. We were so blessed to have a caring, Christian anesthesiologist, and he let us know that he took his job very seriously. Our son came through the surgery just fine and was actually playing and rolling around like normal the very next day. It was amazing. Babies heal so quickly! I just wanted to share that with you as I know it can be comforting to hear from others who have been through similar things. I'll keep you and Micah in my prayers!

ashpuck said...

I also know how scary it can be to have your baby put under for surgery. My little boy who is now 7 has had 3 minor problems that needed to be fixed. I will be praying for you and for Micah. I'm sure everything will be just fine.

~Ashley

Anonymous said...

Love you Tara! We will be praying for you.
Shawna

Kristen said...

Hi Tara ~
I remember hearing your story on our local news and being amazed by you. I have since stumbled on your blog and thought I would drop a suggestion. There is a website (you may have heard of it) called blurb.com where you can create your own book. you can carry a blog over and have it turned into a book. You could turn Preston's blog into a book. I don't know, I know they say that things posted on the internet stay forever but it might be nice to be able to touch his words. I hope I did not upset you by anything I've said. You are a wonderful, strong example of living for Christ. Thank you for sharing your story, Preston's story, and sweet pictures of you gorgeous babies. Glad Micah's surgery went well.

Katie said...

Tara,

I only ocassionally get to catch up on reading your blog and I have never read Preston's before. Every time I speak with you I am amazed at how God's grace and glory shines through you. Now after looking back at Preston's blog I see a truly amazing gift from God. You are someone I admire greatly because I know that the loss of Preston was devistating but you have conciously made a choice to continue through life with the strength of our Lord as your compass.

Katie.