I went to the dr. on Thursday for a regular 16week check up and after my appt. the nurse who is truly the sweetest nurse I've ever had, told me she could get me into ultrasound for a few minutes to find out the sex of the bambino....If I wanted! I wasn't supposed to find out until Nov. 24th, but of course I jumped at the chance to find out early! It was a male tech. and I don't know if any of you have experienced a male ultrasound tech. but they are well..... blunt and non emotional (ok so the two I've had). The guy places the thing on my belly and goes, "it's a boy." Totally blunt and way to fast! I was got off gaurd and was like, "uhh, are you sure? can you double check?!!!!?" cause you have to know I was over 100% sure it was a girl! And to be entirely honest, I hoped it was a girl. Well he double checked, for my sake and the little guy wasn't being shy.... it was quite obvious. You can't really mistake a boy!! And then..... I cried. Isn't that pathetic? I was mostly shocked, but I really thought it was a girl and secretly hoped it was because under the circumstances it would have been nice to have one of each. And the only name we had talked about was a girls name, Peyton. I know it's a guys name too, but I had dreamed it to be a girls name. I don't have any ideas about boy names, so I'm open to suggestions! I have had about 5 people suggest Micah, which means 'Who is like God.' I want to use Preston for a middle name and no names go with Preston. But you know, I think I have a few months to figure it out!
I know and trust that God has his hand entirely in even this, he is such a great God and knows far better than me what we'll need. And you know, surprise, surprise, this isn't all about me! ha! It is so easy to be so self centered. Jacob might really need a brother and friend growing up. Now I don't have to ever worry about having a little girl who doesn't have her daddy to walk her down the aisle - (ya I do think that far ahead). I'll have two boys to protect me and people tell me boys are easier than girls, it's been true with Jake - and if I had a girl like me then they are definitely right! I can't wait to see Jake interact with his baby bro. I am starting to get excited, my mom bought him this adorable outfit to come home from the hospital in! And I'm redecorating the "boys" room!! It will be wonderful and I know as soon as I meet this little one I will become lost in my precious gift from the Lord.
"I WILL PRAISE YOU, O LORD, WITH ALL MY HEART" - Psalm 138:1